I dream a lot mostly when I'm pre-mental, maybe it's the increase in my body heat that sends the brain a little nuts and fizzes my synaptic array (sorry I've been watching Star Trek again).
In my tween-hood I kept diaries of the things (mostly they were about Stars Wars and Duran Duran at that stage) but over the years they have more often than not shown themselves to be prophetic from everything to picnics and boyfriend stuff I needed to know. I had a beloved pet, Angel, die and visit me in a dream where she was surrounded with all kinds of other animals so I knew she had reached the equivalent of animal heaven.
Over the years many of my dream themes have become clear. Water has been a major one and as a youngster it was tidal waves. First on a beach and later on higher ground, then swimming and breathing underwater. Through my more difficult times, it has been more about deep and dark water. My research has revealed that water-related dreams symbolise emotions so it has made perfect sense that I would be unconsciously fielding emotional states in the Land of Nod also.
I also dream of houses a lot (said to represent the self) and often in these, I will come across dark and empty rooms and wonder is that representative of a space in me that isn't quite 'whole'? That said, I do enjoy a bit of detective work on these themes and find my dreams are a great tool for checking messages my innards are sending me. Now and then I suffer from a boogie man nightmare but that's probably just the fertile imagination in play. Thankfully yes, there is still the 'sexy time with celebrities' dreams so it's not all nightmares and self-reflection. Overall, dreams are fun and can be a great guide to checking in with yourself.
What are you dreaming of?
I recently undertook an 11-day angelic 'challenge' with the lovely Lamanda Brown. While I typically started it 3 days late (ever the rebellious student) and didn't complete every task, it did bring me into a deeper connection with myself and my angels. I had a couple of epiphanies along the way (due in part to other spiritual pursuits) but all in all, I came away from these exercises knowing my demons a little better and feeling much closer to the idea a new version of myself is emerging.
Am I alone in thinking that some days you are so certain of your path that it doesn't matter that there is a blackness within that may emerge at any time and blow such certainties to the ether?
However, I took that joyful high onto my local dancefloor to stretch the body and shake my chakras! I was feeling light having also removed someone toxic from my life which seems to be par for the course as you take stock of your life more often with this illness! Fortunately, the individual made the decision to dump me as I really dreaded having that talk with them given their volatile nature. This image (courtesy of the mighty fine blogger, Eric Barker) says it all.
Still on a high, my compadres and I ventured to a local beach. The total sensation of the sun on my skin and the salty waves lapping at my ankles felt like a skin of my former self had been shed and this new version was now fully formed and out in the world. The day morphed into evening whereby I topped it off by cooking for my crew as they regaled me with hilarious tales of their dating exploits.
While in a revelatory mood, there is still a part of me that doesn't think my condition lends itself to vetting potential lovers online. I sense the headline "Humorous Depressive Seeks Sexy Soul Connections" may see the tumbleweeds fly across my inbox and the joy relegated to a nice burst of alliteration. Oh well, my soul and I are in a good place for now though.
How's yours doing?
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