Sometimes it appears wise to look back over my journey and think about pivotal moments. Moments when you felt you were achieving more and that the tides had turned in your favour (or not!).
I've had several moments when I thought this less than lovely place in my life had finally been put to bed. Last year for instance, I got a TV gig and then six weeks later I was back in the black space as the employer realised actually he couldn't afford me in the production budget. The devastation was indescribable as I had thought I had reached a coming out moment after my illness had taken me out of my earlier career. Alas it was not meant to be.
I can look at that moment now without emotion. I do feel I am right where I am meant to be but that feeling of failure after such a long time healing and working toward returning to a career (a career built over 20 years of hard yakka no less!), I truly wondered at that time if would ever work in something that meaning to me again.
Interestingly even though I had started my book a month before that job offer came into play (two in fact, I turned down the other much to my horror!) it still took many months before it was clear that writing is where my heart and focus should be. I may be doing this one year from now and still have a small audience but you are my audience! And as much as I write I feel become a stronger person and it would seem to integrate these life lessons into my being. In essence I think looking back periodically is an excellent way to continue moving forward.
What makes you stronger?
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